also i just really hate kidd? ?
like, i didnt like him before but now every thing he does makes me upset.
you know what would be really fucking great??
if my hair would stop fucking falling out. i understand that it is a normal result of dying it but this is like ALOT of hair and it’s visibly thinner.
ughhhh.
i really honestly dont care about other peoples love lives and or personal problems and i have a really hard time trying to care and im pretty sure that makes me a bad friend.
i really hate that all i see is people’s faults. even in the people that are closest to me i start to get really fucking annoyed but small things to the point that i distance myself from them. i actually cant just let myself be happy and let other people enjoy my without fucking things up.
i’m just really exhausted and cant bring myself to do anything but lay here and be upset about anything and everything. i’ve decided to completely ignore school and everything about it hopefully it will jut go away.
jesus fucking christ after the show last night (which was amazing and almost worth everything im about to list) hattie and went outside to find that my car had been towed. this is bad for two reasons a) it was an hour and a half after my curfew and my dad thought i was already at my moms and b) MY FUCKING CAR GOT TOWED.
so after work today my mom, who has been surprisingly cool about the whole thing especially since she didn’t tell dad, and i went to get it from the impound lot (which cost $260) and as i was driving out of it the gearshift broke and i got stuck in the middle of the street and some random stranger had to push me to the sidewalk, when i then found the $40 parking ticket. anyway, thankfully my mother found some guy on the lot that could temporarily fix the gearshift so we could drive it home and pretend that all of that happened in my mom’s complex so my dad wont know about the towing but the truck is broken and i cant drive it and i am now $300 poorer.
